Confessions of an Ad Whore

I am not sure why but for no reason at all I get really depressed the week of my birthday. I get really morbid and start questioning everything (friendships, loyalties, my path, who I am becoming) it’s not a likeable thing so I tend to go inward, or throw myself into the planning of nick’s bday (since he had so fewer bdays than me).

I also can’t really pinpoint it but I miss my mom really bad for some reason. I mean I know she made a big deal of my birthday each year, but it’s been a long long time and I should be used to that being gone (yeah yeah and I can give other people the “no timeline for grief” speech but it doesn’t work on myself). There should be enough distance, enough getting used to it, but I do think only my mom understood the birthday funk and how to get me out of it. Sure I have a great husband and my friends are so much amazing as well, but it hurts to say that even at 27, some girls still need their mama.

here are some things about my first day as compared to my most recent job experience in corporate-ville (where none of these things happened):

my computer was brand new out of the box WITHOUT a floppy disc drive
All necessary programs and software were set up and installed for me
It has the newest operating system and up-to-date software versions
it is a laptop so I may work on the go
I have internet access on day one, as opposed to week 3
I had an email account all set up
I can check work email remotely, i know it’s a concept so foreign
I pet two dogs all day long
I enjoyed a kitchen and glassware
I met everyone in the first 5 minutes of being there
I have a patio to enjoy beers on
I got keys
I wore jeans

ahhh…I think i’m gonna like it here.

Where did we meet?
Highschool, when you stole my brother’s heart from a horrid wench! THANK YOU
SO MUCH for doing that, by the way.
*somewhere with Sharon, but I really don’t remember exactly…*
Through an heir search, then you came to my house in CT and we met in person
In your tiny apartment on Alice, probably after a shuttle ride back from SF where Nick and I
held hands and looked longingly into each others’ eyes.
at mills college, through the children’s school
the first time i remember meeting you is at 299 castro at kelli and jason’s engagement party? i think that’s what it was. our first date was at sparky’s for milkshakes.

>>>what Nicole says: all true!

Take a stab at my middle name?
Suzanne. But now it’s Hogarty, because you thought NHM looked more professional than NSHM.
*Marie?*
Susanne
Perky
suzanne (though it’s hogarty now, sort of)
it was suzanne (right? not suzanna?) and now it is hogarty.

>>>what Nicole says: My middle name was Susanne (with an S) but I changed it to Hogarty when I took nick’s last name. I chose it for the initials. NHM was the natural history museum and NSM was the neo-socialist movement. This was a tribute to my mom and how she chose my name originally.

Do I smoke?
That depends on the substance. But not, not cigarettes
*I don’t think so*
No, you loathe smoking and smokers!!
Nothing found at the check out stand
no
not even a little.

>>>what Nicole says: vomit, I hate smoke.

Color of my eyes?
Blue
*blue*
Sea foam blue
Blue
blue
i already guessed this one. blue!

>>>what Nicole says: They are blue but turn green depending on what i wear!

Do I have any siblings?
Hmm. Yeah, a lot of half brothers and sisters. 3 on your dad’s side and 5 on your mom’s, no? I can’t remember the exact count.
*no*
Yes, 4 I think on your Dad’s side and 4 on your Mom’s side
Yes
Half and in-law
this is your trick questions. on your dad’s side i think 2 sisters? and on your mom’s i know at least a couple of siblings, at least one of each bro and sis. but i don’t know numbers!

>>>what Nicole says: see, this is a tough one. 3 on my dad’s side (one passed away before I was born. 3 on my mom’s side (one passed away before I met them all ). and one in-law.

What’s one of my favorite things to do?
*pole dance*
Yelp
Be excited
wine taste, preferably with some cheese
play with audrey, dance, eat cheese and drink wine

>>>what Nicole says: all true! But I would also add napping, shopping, facials, and surveys

What’s my favorite type of music?
Do I really have to answer this? Uhhh category…indie primarily at first, but you also love Broadway and Oldies.
*varied genres but mostly indie artists*
Indie rock
Stuff that has “Yeahhhh” and “Ohwwwwww” in the lyrics
indie rockish stuff
indie poppy goodness. and showtune happiness.

>>>what Nicole says: Oldies? Not so much. It’s indie rock and roll for me.

Am I shy or outgoing?
Outgoing.
*outgoing*
Outgoing but I think you have your shy moments too, like when you get reflective and go inward (I do that too)
outgoing
i definitely think of you as outgoing, although i’m sure there are situations where you are more shy. it might have been mutual shyness that made us think we didn’t like each other at first.

>>>what Nicole says: all true!

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?
Rebel. Until it comes down to anything work related/financial/government abiding.
*follow the rules but sometimes secretly rebelious*
Both! Mostly follow rules but I think there is a good portion of rebel in there too
You use the rules for your own means
mostly follow the rules, but there’s definitely rebel in nicole
follow the important rules, rebel against the dumb ones.

>>>what Nicole says: all true!

Any special talents?
Singing. Acting. Pulling difficult situations together at last minute.
*a sparkling personality*
You see the world at odd angles. Okay so I stole that one off of your blog profile. The rest I
knew without looking
Shaving / waxing Nick’s back
the ability to make most circumstances fun, or at least tolerable!
singing. *censored* picking out cute outfits. cheering people up.

>>>what Nicole says: all true, except I could never wax nick’s back that requires professionals.

How many children do I have?
None yet, and thank god (even though he doesn’t exist)
*1 dog*
1 dog child, Audrey
2, Nick and Audrey
none
only a canine.
>>>what Nicole says: all true!

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is one thing that I
would bring?
Sunscreen
*Nick*
Hope
One of the many hair moisturizers from your bathroom, all that desert will split your ends.
one thing? audrey! then again if she counts as a thing, nick probably does too, so then you’d probably bring nick. hmmm.

>>>what Nicole says: my iphone

i wasn’t looking, it just happened. But I am quitting my corporate coffee job to go work for an indie agency. Back to my roots, if you will. I am really excited, mostly because I get to work for my former boss who is not just awesome, but an incredible mentor. There’s a few old faces, that I’m psyched to see, and a chance to help make a tiny place into something awesome. Oh, and I can bring my dog to work.

You can call me Senior Account Executive in two weeks.
Let the ball-breaking begin.

That’s right baby. Equal rights for all.

http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2008/05/15/BAMU10N2SR.DTL&tsp=1

Yelp Elite Event @ Orson (Elizabeth Faulkner’s new restaurant)
Little Sam visits
90s dance party
cruising the mission with the mutt for miles
lunch at pizzeria delfina
after parties till 4am

Better rest up, Bay to Breakers is this weekend!

Here’s a shot of Nick and I at the yelp event:

1. It makes me laugh that sometimes we get mail for Dr. Gesunheidt

2. I want to do some volunteer work. I think I am going to volunteer at the ASPCA. I am also oddly interested in being a girl scout co-leader. Does anyone know anything about that, do you have to have a kid to do it?

3. I deleted my myspace. So totally over it.

So I’ve been thinking about things…and there are two changes I am going to move toward making.

1. I think I’m gonna switch to live journal. As much as I have loved owning my own domain, that ship has sailed and i’m just not that into it anymore. I also feel like much of what I want to say or am feeling is censored all the time so this forum no longer serves the purpose it once did for me. In live journal I can create filters and keep certain entries private or for certain eyes only (like you Lori!) and that appeals to me. I also feel like the higher I go up the corporate ladder (and in such a corporate job) there is less and less that I feel comfortable blogging about…but don’t worry I still feel perfectly comfortable DOING these things, just not broadcasting them. I guess what I am saying is that I want some sense of privacy and anonymity back. Another big reason is the spam factor and how much I am loving when people use my domain to send out spam and I awake to 100s of emails of people bouncing back the spam “I” sent. I am sick of keeping up with it. I am sick of deleting out all the nasty prescription drugs from my comments that I don’t believe in and am highly against. I don’t want to do it anymore. Maybe I was up for it in 2000 when I started this, but not anymore.

2. I think I am going to get a new email address. Yes, I am aware mine is long. Yes I do long to combine all accounts into one (I have one for the wedding, one for business-but with my old name, and personal). So now I have to think of one. I think Nick will set me up on one of his domains, but we shall see, i also may break down and convert to gmail, though I think I would miss mac mail too much.

That said? Anyone know a good email address for me?

This is the best you tube this week, a translation of Christina’s song “Ain’t no other man”:

They just added prince to the coachella line up. As if we weren’t psyched enough.